I went outside. by Asterion 15 MAR 2025 Left my house yesterday for the first time in months. It wasn't to hang out with anyone, unfortunately. I just needed a new prescription of glasses. But I went to get a sub with my mom afterwards! That really made my day. Still, going to that Walmart to get my eyes checked out was terrible. I've been trying to grow my hair out since May, and having to go out in public with that rat's nest made me feel like shit. And not to mention all the social faux pas I was making trying to navigate in such an unfamiliar environment. The people at the vision center seemed to be understanding, but I felt like I was just being pitied. I'd rather nobody pity me in the first place. I don't envy neurotypicals much, but at least they can interact with strangers. I just end up feeling like I'm fucked in the head, that I haven't even begun to be an independent adult. Another thing: I wasn't too excited to see symptoms of consumption everywhere. Shelves upon shelves upon shelves of stuff. Hundreds of brand names. Many overweight and even a few obese people schmoozing around the displays. When I look at the selections of pre-boiled eggs or noxious candy-flavored drinks, I never see a cornucopia. I think about how many mutated animals live and die in Holocausts of their own, just to overfeed millions of worthless human biomass in the West. ...I'm sorry if I'm negative. I just don't have much to be happy about.